I've Come to Realize

Even though an amazing feeling comes from gaining a new friend, it can never quite level out the pain that comes with loosing your best friend.

Be honest and upfront with people, but don't make painful accusations that will push them away. 

I realize that I pushed my best friend away, and that it's my fault because I really hurt one of the most important people in my life.

I realize that this should not have happened, but only happened because I was foolish.

I realize that I might not ever get you back again because of my actions.

I realize a lot of things about this situation, but most of all:

I realize that I'm sorrier than I've ever been, that I've wanted to take back every single word that I've said to you today ever since the moment they crossed my lips, and that I'll miss being able to call one of the greatest people on this planet my best friend.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh

It's so refreshing just talking to someone.
There are so many amazing people in this world, and I probably know the most amazing people out there.
Shout outs!
-My familia... what more can I say? Angels, all of them.
-My Society Of Foxy Female friends... My girls are always there for me :)
-My amazing amazing best friends. I've gotten so close to each of them, and they're all such awesome people I can't even handle it!
-All of the other people I know! I honestly don't think that I dislike anyone right now.

Advice for people wanting a new friend:
1. Find a potential friend.
2. Sit down and talk to said potential friend.
3. Be yourself.
BAM!!!!!!
That person is probably (hopefully) your friend now.

This works. Now everyone go make a new friend! It's a great, refreshing feeling :)

Secret Love Affair

Nothing quite like a duet between Cecilia Bartoli and Bryn Terfel.
Or a bubble bath, many alit candles, and an old EFY CD for that matter.

If you'd like to become addicted to the amazingly glorious voice of Bryn like I am, click HERE!
Just to add a bit more happiness to your life.

But this is not the reason why we are here.

We are here, once again, because of my confusion. Why I can never seem to write a post where I am not confused about life or boys, I do not understand. I guess I just don't know what I want anymore.
Don't get me wrong dear friends, I am perfectly happy on my own. That is a trait that has taken awhile to develop, but I can finally say I am perfectly happy without a man. But that doesn't mean I still don't want one.
With all of the things that have been going on with my family lately, I'm surprised at myself. But there are several boys on my list (do not worry! It's a good list, not a hit list). Apparently the main problem is that I cannot seem to figure out where each person falls on the list. Hence my confusion, stress, and need for the soothingly sensuous voice of my beloved Bryn Terfel.
It will take some time and developments for me to fully understand my list and therefore my heart, so until then I will: take more bubble baths, listen/fall in love with Bryn some more, reread the twilight series for the fourth time (my books that I read when I'm lonely and bored), and eat as much chocolate and peanut butter as my little heart desires.
Amen.

Post Script: If you have not figured it out yet, the secret love affair is between myself, Bryn Terfel, Bubble baths, candles, peanut butter, chocolate, and Twilight. Catching hook right?

To Make Decisions:

I'm usually a pretty optimistic person. But today I'm just so thrown off I don't know what to do with myself! A note to all you people out there (which I'm assuming is not too many people) that are looking to make a decision anytime soon:
                                                                     
1. The heart wants things for reasons that reason cannot understand. If your heart is telling you it wants something, don't ignore it! That'd be stupid.


2. Decide what you're going to do and then do it! So what if it's hard? No good thing will ever be great if it is not worked for.
                       
3. There are people that love you no matter what, so make choices because you want to make them.
                                                       
4. Pray before you do something that scares you.


5. Live with the choice you made. It might suck now, but it's bound to get better eventually. Especially if there is any form of chocolate around (preferably peanut butter m&ms).