I advance to the front - why am I doing this?
I look into the audience,
See a pair of eyes
THE pair of eyes.
I've seen your eyes before.
Take in a deep breath,
Post Script: Dramatic yes? I hope so. An exaggerated tale to engage the audience before stating what really happened.
I sang in Master Class today. I took on the "One Week Challenge" (i.e. learning a song and then performing it all within a week). I woke up this morning, (no, I was not feeling like P-diddy), got myself all beautiful and stuff because I knew I'd be seeing a certain somebody. It actually ended up being two somebodys. I warmed up to the best of my abilities and went toward the outside hallway of my classroom. I see him, the dreaded ex, and I feel my stomach drop. I had secretly hoped that he would not come today even though I knew he would. He'd never miss the chance to see me again.
So class starts and I'm trying my hardest not to look, not to think of him. Of course it didn't work. Couldn't help but glance over every couple of minutes. The last person before me finishes his song and I know I'm up. (Insert preferred expletive here). I walk to what feels like will be the end of my life and I give him one last glance before I start. I can do this. I wish my best friend were here, he's the one I can truly sing for. I can do this. I start my song and then mess up, of course. Start again. Mess up again. My teacher joins me to make sure I'm alright, but I am mortified.
I try to persevere through my piece and I eventually make it with the help of my teacher. At this point I'm dying. I wonder what he thinks. I wonder why I can't do this. I wish my best friend were here. At that moment I see another pair of eyes - a familiar pair that belong to my best friend. I start my song a final time and completely nail it. Huzzah!
I got many compliments but there were three that made my day:
1.) "You are amazing, I had no clue you could sing like that. Blew me away." - An amazing singer that I look up to very much.
2.) "See ya later Brandy, good job." - Ex.
3.) A high five along with a hug, "Sounded pretty good. Sorry I was late." - Bestie.
I don't need to be afraid, I don't need to stress because I love to sing!